My Year of Self-Centeredness

Today is my 33rd birthday. My family surprised me with a celebration earlier this weekend. I made preparations for today last night by cleaning my living room, dining room, and kitchen because I was tired of all the crap and clutter and did not want to awake to that this morning. Today, however, I work up different. I didn't feel it last night as I was cleaning and I didn't feel it last weekend when I was hanging with the fam. I felt it today. I felt a solemnness that was both peaceful and clarifying while it was disturbing. I struggle with birthdays because of garbage from my childhood, but this sobriety was not from that. I reflected that Jesus died at 33. Wow. 33 is so young, yet His life has made an eternal impact on the rest of us. I've decided that I would make my 33rd year a year of self-centeredness. A year where I take a good look at myself and my life and clean out the crap. This blog will serve as my accountability to walk though this year in reflection and refinement.

What will this look like?

• Losing weight
• Toning up and running a half marathon
• Clearing out and cleaning up the clutter and mess in my house
• Making my house a resting place of peace
• Developing a daily regimen for meeting with God throughout the day
• Being still and silent
• Beginning to climb my way out of debt
• Listening to what my body needs and only giving it the correct fuel
• Give myself over to my creative side (music, art, sewing, baking)
• Being selfless in my love for my husband

I am nervous about this list. I don't think I can do it. I almost didn't write a blog because I knew that if these words were in print there would be no turning back. It's time for me to be focused, serious, do the uncomfortable things, and make my life count. I choose to do the hard things now so that I won't have to do the harder things later.